Don't be stupid - it's nothing for you to apologize for.
[It's not hard for Tenka to get a guess at Sousei's thoughts. After all, when Taiko had introduced them, Tenka's first thought was "Abe? The onmyouji familiy?" and yet Sousei had never thought to try to take up their techniques as shamans. Yet those very techniques likely would've been helpful during this and might've spared Tenka some heartache.
But Tenka knows just as well as anyone that heartache is just part of growing.]
I learned something in all the time I had to myself.
[By himself. And yet... he refuses to be bitter about it.
It was hard, it was grueling, and he is shaken. For once in his life, he was more than truly alone. He didn't have his family, the villagers, not even Hirari and his doctor to keep him company in his pain.
Yet during all of Tenka's hardships before, he would constantly strive for the sake of others. For his brothers, for the villagers, for the people who cared about him, he would keep on living. Seeing all the people he cared about keep moving on, somehow still managing even though he was clearly not himself and his own light diminished from the world, he wondered:
Why does it still hurt?
His hands cover his face as he laughs, voice thick with emotion.]
I don't want to be a friendly ghost that haunts the people I love.
I want to be a part of their lives for as long as I can.
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[It's not hard for Tenka to get a guess at Sousei's thoughts. After all, when Taiko had introduced them, Tenka's first thought was "Abe? The onmyouji familiy?" and yet Sousei had never thought to try to take up their techniques as shamans. Yet those very techniques likely would've been helpful during this and might've spared Tenka some heartache.
But Tenka knows just as well as anyone that heartache is just part of growing.]
I learned something in all the time I had to myself.
[By himself. And yet... he refuses to be bitter about it.
It was hard, it was grueling, and he is shaken. For once in his life, he was more than truly alone. He didn't have his family, the villagers, not even Hirari and his doctor to keep him company in his pain.
Yet during all of Tenka's hardships before, he would constantly strive for the sake of others. For his brothers, for the villagers, for the people who cared about him, he would keep on living. Seeing all the people he cared about keep moving on, somehow still managing even though he was clearly not himself and his own light diminished from the world, he wondered:
Why does it still hurt?
His hands cover his face as he laughs, voice thick with emotion.]
I don't want to be a friendly ghost that haunts the people I love.
I want to be a part of their lives for as long as I can.